Wow, Today's Sunday. July 4th is over,mine was a bust, hope you all celebrated with fireworks, if allowed...in Utah, they sell them everywhere! I don't really have to scramble to go to a park or anything to see them shot. My family is all elsewhere so no picnics on the horizon and my guy, well he never was into it much, the dog he had would go nuts from the explosions, so we always spent July 4 separate he could keep the dog sane. I couldn't go to his place,hence the separate. But i digress, i don't need to go to a Park because on my back deck, the Park can be seen, so I can see some of the fireworks go off.
Been watching the Harry Potter movies this weekend, mostly to see the "Order of the Phoenix" spoilers they throw out, pretty clever for ABC Family to get people hooked all weekend hey? At least for we "Potter" enthusiasts who are waiting for the movie this week to come out. Not to mention the Final Book this month. I really need to get my eyes checked or I won't be able to read the Book once I get it!.
Purrsimmons says Hi to you all. She is getting even more trusting. This week, she laid on her back and let me rub her tummy! WOW I was surprised. You have to be careful though, you can't pet to far down to her back legs, it sets off her "kicking,scratching"muscles and they don't like that!. I had to consider sending her back because my son is so highly alergic. Yea, he is 32, doesn't live with me, but he and his family live 4 min. from me and he comes over, but it's getting harder for him. She's a companion to me now. Annoying as she can be standing on my stomach at night when it's bedtime...she wants to play as I want to sleep, and she's getting heavier, TRUST me! But see,I can't let her run outside because the people who run this complex would charge me extra (if you can believe that) to have her, so she is an indoor cat. An you know they get fat and sassy even though I give her "indoor catfood"..course "indoor food" doesn't slim me down any LOL
I guess I'm feeling a bit low..can you tell? My guy is going through some stuff and i'm not there to help and it's hard for me when I can't DO anything for him. Now he's talking about getting rid of the TV and he has shows he watches and we share too. New season is starting of shows he likes and he says the price is to high. So here I sit, who moved away where he could come over and we'd watch together and share things we can't now, but I thought, well, there are shows we can share and now he wants to chuck it....But it's not about me....I just feel lonesome I guess. You know? like, your parents are dead,so you feel abandoned.....you have sisters and brother but they don't talk to each other. Your marriage ended badly so your plans of how your future would be get blown....and your kids you had young so they're grown and gone so your having "empty nest syndrome" early in life. And a dR. tells you you've got Post- Tramatic- Stress Syndrome which has caused some of my physical troubles so they want to put me on drugs I can't take cause I'm allergic. Ok, NOW can you tell I'm down? LOL
I'll be ok. God is holding on to me....and because I need it, tightly. I will be sending this sadness to a smile and get my life together. I promise, my next entry, I'll be smiling, trust me!..And, all will not be right with the world, but hey, baby steps ;)
